well, it seems that i managed to find a way through the blind lane,where my career got stuck. i know the new lane wouldn't be a royal one like the earlier one. but i can still move on in life. and that's the important thing.
so the insomnia is gone(although i'm worried a bit) and now i can SLEEP. and i know that 'd be able to do my masters. it means a lot to me at this moment.